For the past two weeks of March, it’s been quite lazy for me. No comment.

Today, I went to a whole day event hosted by Worship Central. I'd say I didn't sleep the night before and instead played American Army all night. Bad bad I know... So started to get ready at like 7am and still didn't make it. I got to the place at 10 and found the guys then we started to find seats before it starts at 11. We got to top corner seat where I was right at the corner; with gum on the side and roof to hit my head when I stand up... Nevertheless, worship was great! Took my videos too, might upload somewhere, somehow, sometime.

Then there was a little talk by Tim Hughes! He's an amazing worship leader and singer. If you go to church, you must of heard of his name and the famous "Here I am to Worship" song. He's so funny and great, a wonderful man! ~ Then it was time for lunch. We wandered around and ended up in Boots, while some others got Wasabi. Lalala, we decided to go downstairs instead this time and jam on the carpet. Much more live, but pain in the legs! You know I'm old and my bones ache quickly : ) ~ The seminar on "The Band" was great, funny people and they were telling us how to do well when your worship leading. That’s the whole point of the event. The ending worship was just wonderful. It was a lovely day, eventhough it ended at 9pm, and despite with no sleep, I stayed awake throughout the whole thing!

I definitely recommend these kinds of events. You always learn something new, have fun and experience top quality worship. In fact any person, even non-Christians will enjoy it. It was all new songs, lots of rock in it and even got us dancing. It's brought ideas to all of us, that we should get a band in church. Adjustin has been working nearly solo for too long. Its time to liven it up too! Worship is so much to me; it’s what inspiring me to do better and its how I got to know Jesus.

This definitely gets me back into worship leading. I haven’t done any for a really long time. The guys in church have always seen me as a leader of some sort. Maybe because I was the oldest =/ But I've been letting them down and don't even attend much church Sundays anymore. Time to work on it, practise more guitar and vocals; I mean, I love the job. It takes responsibility though, which I lack through laziness, which is probably why my leading went to a downfall at some point.

I learnt a lot of new songs and I tried to capture as many as I could. And to end. I don't know which song this is as I haven’t searched for it yet, but there were a couple of lines that were so great.

Is it true that You are

thinking of me

How You love me

it's amazing

♥

I found this a while ago, thought I'd share it.

If I really matter to you...

Don't wait until I've grown up and got married to tell me that you've always had a crush on me. Wondering what could've been if you'd spoken sooner.

Don't wait until I've moved to another country to tell me that you were glad to have me close by and you felt comforted by the fact that I was only minutes and a phone call away.

Don't wait until I'm sick and only then decide to visit me at the hospital where I can barely communicate and we can only mourn the time we'll never have to spend together.

Don't wait until my funeral to tell my family and friends all of the wonderful things about me that I would've loved to hear from you in person when I still walked the earth.

If I really matter to you... don't wait.  I'm here.

I think we can easily take people for granted and regret the time we've wasted. I would encourage you to reach out to that one person you think doesn't ever want to hear from you. You'd be surprised to find out that most often, they've been waiting for you. So please... don't wait.

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Last weekend was wonderful. This weekend there is absolutely nothing to talk about. Both Saturday and Sunday was occupied by relentless hours of morning sleep. It’s like I have an Australian alarm clock, where I wake up when they wake up on the other side of the earth. I've always had sleeping problems, this is quite insane. Saturdays I've decided it will not longer be my sleep rest day and spend it doing something more productive. Sundays, I should go back to church and enjoy back those days where I go yum cha every week with family.

It will mean less time at home, and more time spent out and having fun. But, if I wake up to realise, I'm just staying home. I will go back to sleep. In fact, I go back to sleep even though there was meant to be something going on...

Lets talk about Monday. Dad was ill, so I took the tube to school. Normally I take the bus, but its longer because you have to wait for the buses... The tube is amazingly fast. Bethnal Green to Bank, then Northern line to West Finchley in 45mins! Now, I was supposed to get off at Woodside Park station the one after West Finchley but I had a glimpse of the map and West Finchley is a shorter walk to school. Yes, there’s no buses on either stations to school. Ghey, 15 min walk...

Did I mention I only had a glimpse of the map? Now, I'm very good at maps and getting myself around London. Keithy may come first, but I'm sure I'm second when it comes to travelling in London. I knew the route. My memory is great, so there was no problem. But what happened to clumsiness and stubbornness? I decided to not ask for directions until the last minute. Even though I was walking in the right direction ... When I got back to school an hour late, I realised that I walked in the complete opposite direction! Simple misunderstanding! I should of remembered the road names. Haii, I failed so badly for once. I walked almost two miles backwards. I ended up at Mill Hill East, 3 stations back =/

I feel like I failed so badly. Obviously I shouldn't of taken the risk. But, I'm just naturally a risk taker. I've succeeded many times and failed many times. But this was quite a disgrace. First time in my life, I got lost. 

First day of college and I lose my ema. Oh, wells! It’s only been surprise for me when I actually get ema...

 Legs were tired, but I liked the work out. I need them legs to be stronger for swimming. So there was no first lesson. Second lesson, teacher was not in, but I didn't go anyways. So no lessons until 3pm I guess.

What am I doing right now? Blogging in College of course!

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Snow wor! Headache haii... I'm acting weird again. Stupid school. No lessons though. Soul Calibur. Poker. Mcdonalds?!?!?!

The snowstorm continued throughout Sunday night and by Monday morning the snow set and London turned so white =O

I didn't bother waking up for school, since there was no point with the snow. Once I got the news about no school "officially" from a friend, I jumped straight to bed. I wasn't feeling so well. Must have been last night, got a little cold from the blizzard. So kinda expected but woke up for dinner. And damn. Snow day! Its gone... Oh wells, I was never a big fan of snow but I did enjoy myself the next day at school. Bleh, snowball fights =O

Yeah, so the next day had to go to school. It was pointless really. Came in at 9.30, for a 10.15 registration and 12 o'clock lesson which got cancelled in the end as "I was the only pupil". So tried to go on msn, but only managed to get thru to xanga lool. If lesson wasn’t cancelled, I probs went home. But saw Louie and KC just as I was going home.

Eeee, they went to Sams. Damn, that place is like WTF??! The chips are so nice, I must try the 2 and 2 too! Ten wings and double fries for £2.99... Holy~ But hey, them wings were skank =/

Later we hoped over to Giles place then KC's for some Soul Calibur and Poker. Ahh, bare slow on my fighting games nowadays. Even brawl, I've lost touch. And poker was just not my day. We later went to KY's house for more poker. Cards werent coming for me. So I just played aggressive. Outcome? First to lose =P [Obvi] ~ They doubled the blinds like every 5mins! OMDZ, that’s like every 2/3 games... They went to amounts that the blinds were almost “all in” for us! o_O

Home time was 73 bus with Keithy. He’s Taller and Sexier Than Ever! LOL Then, when I got to Hackney, was too hungry to walk. So went to McDonalds. Even though, I was minutes away from home and I could enjoy what mum cooked for me. It was years since I had the McChicken Sandwich. It was Happy Meal > McChicken Sandwich > Big Mac > Filet o’fish (recently) > Double Cheeseburgers (alternative for the ugly big mac) It wasn’t so great actually... Beef, seems to work much better no an empty stomach. Anyways.  Wait lemme, check what dinner actually was.... **** Hahah, some of my favourites. Damn, the fried or grilled chicken from tescos and spam! Omgawd, I love spam. Such a cool name too! =]

In terms of luck, today was horrible. I’m getting this weird feeling again. Always happens after we meet. I don’t like moving from good to bad, happy to unhappy all the time… It doesn’t feel good. I want to stay happy. No matter what happens. I won’t give up and I was chase after what is really important to me.

MSN. Sleep. Ring Ring. Sleep. Ring Ring. Sleep. Late. Fail at PUI. Roundabout journeys on the bus.

More MSN at night =P ~ Didn't sleep so late as I was determined to go out on Saturday. It’s usually my sleep day, but there are reasons why I put an effort...

So let’s see... Woke up at 10:30, 11:30, 1:30, 3:30, 4:30. Yeah, Ying kept on ringing me, waking me up. That girl... 15 pairs of shoes, wardrobe of hair products and loves doing girly things =P ~ Anyways, so my problem is, I wake up and fall back to sleep. Doing this so many times is quite a problem. No?

So yes, I was well late. Wanted to come out at 2 o'clock but ended up at troc at 5.30 wooooo~ Typical me. So just played some PUI with Ying. Damn, he’s good. I totally suck at that thing. =[ ~ Met a dude called David and we just wandered around. Well, it was getting late, time to go home! Except, Ying wanted to go to my home =/

Oh yes, was supposed to meet up with Dolly but was only 5 hours late...  So was just me, her and Ying on the 29. Ahhh, then we went back on the 29. Ahhh, we love bus journeys =P ~ We just wasted our time because someone kept thinking the tubes were off. Day ends with tube journey with me and Ying. That girl...

Yes, that girl...

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Back to college. Cause for concern. Coursework. Mechanics exam. End of the weekdays at last!

Weekdays. Ahh, too lazy to blog for everyday and there isn’t much to talk about my boring life at college. First day back at school, I got a cause for concern for not attending lessons and not showing any progress on my ICT coursework. Well dur, I had exams so I couldn’t come to school and just have no time to think about coursework. Well, at least the exams are over now. I'm behind on lots of A2 work, but for now, I must put all my efforts on my gay IT coursework. It’s a long process; it’s boring and a complete waste of time to be frank.

Wednesday. The truth is... I didn't go to my Mechanics exam. There was no point in going to the exam unprepared. 2008 was too horrible to do anything productive. No worries. The coming June exams will determine my future from now on. It will decide whether going to university is really for me. I'm considering other alternatives, but I'm not losing hope.

Didn't go to school today. Does this reflect my true self? I'm still constantly on the laptop. But, I think it’s time. I'm getting bored of it. It’s no longer a necessity for me... soon. So instead of finding new ways to entertain myself, why not go back and study. It’s going to be a long process as I'm behind on A2 work, ICT coursework must be done (and must be good!) and also I want to keep revising my AS topics. Lots of work is to be done and there isn’t much time. However, there is enough for me to significantly improve on my studies.

Looking forward to this weekend. Hopefully, fun will just turn up on my door. It’s coming to Chinese New Year, so let’s have the blogs in red guys! =D

This ain't just words, I will take action and I won't let you down anymore.

The End.

No sleep. Coffee. Came out. Saw people. Pump it up. Wait. Call. Wait. Call some more. Wait. Gone home.

I should of slept last night. I had plenty of time. I somehow just wasted it all. School is about to start, so I must sort myself back to normal. Once I get my M1 book, I will revise. What a lame excuse... But, it's all I've got. This final exam in January is the only chance to get the Maths grade I deserve. I don't have high hopes anymore, but I'm willing to do my best. God has given me too many chances. I can't keep waiting for another chance. What must be done. Must be done.

^ was written in the morning. I didn't expect to write much today. But lets see...

I normally don't come out on saturdays. Its usually the day I stay at home and rest, do work whatever~ Came out for Carrie and came out for KC. Got to chinatown around half three and had a look at the chinese school - "waa surn" is it? Anyways, had a little chat with a friend who skipped class and went to gamerbase. These people are still hooked on this next zombie game...

Anyways, met up with Carrie and went to troc to play Pump It up! Weeee, I'm improving, but still not great yet. Will practice more! Carrie is just amazing at it. She can freestyle! ~ 

LOL, I love it when Carrie can't do some of the steps and she starts moaning "ahhhhhh" xP

Also I saw J and J again, they were still playing DDR =D There was quite a lot of people at troc today. I guess its near chinese new year or something. Lots of people out. Or have I just not been out on saturdays much?

So I got to see Carrie. Wonderful. What about KC? Well, I wanted to borrow his M1 book. He said he will come out around 4ish. Anyways, I called him like a hundred times. He has picked up, a couple of them. But no sight of him. Every time, he has said: "I'm coming out now". When? Next year?? Dammit, I waited so long. People were departing and I was just left alone. So played some more PUI. I'm like totally in love with it now =D

So I gave up waiting for KC near the end. Didn't find the point of waiting. I'm not fed up with him. Just a bit pissed. I've realised, I've never hated someone before. Its like so hard for me. I have too much patience.

忍一时风平浪静, 退一步海阔天空

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Heyy! Its Jason here and its my first blog! =) 

What do I do ah!? What should I write here? Will people read it? Hmm, lets just give xanga a go! =D

Today, was not a great day. Woke up late. Late to exam. Failed exam. Wasted my day at home.

I had a Physics AS exam today, two papers and I didn't really do so well. The first paper wasn't bad but the second paper; just cried and left the exam after 15mins. There was nothing I could write on the paper. Oh wells, I'll give it another go in June.

Retakes. My last one is on wednesday. Maths. Mechanics. Its really tough. Everyone seems to hate it. I've just got a few more days to prepare. Its my only chance to boost my grade so I must try my best. But what is my best? For the past 6 papers this January, I have hardly revised properly for any of them. The most time I've spent is on reading books. Well the revision guides on the subjects. Helpful, but not very practical. I should of started revision about a month ago with questions, exercises and past papers.

Its too late to regret now. But I don't want to give up. Been giving up too much. I'll give mechanics my best shot. But I can't see myself work hardcore everday before the exam. Wish me luck.

I want to write more but lets just leave it here for now.

First blog. The End.